Cardiology and Pork Fried Rice

I just ate a 32oz. container of pork fried rice and I'm enjoying this side of my three day weekend. It's finally cooled down to 80 degrees. Tomorrow morning I'm going to broga and farmers market. In the afternoon I'm going to swim in a lake with a bunch of friends. I love the feeling of open swimming. I've been a swimmer all my life but it's never felt so good...therapeutic. I went last weekend and I'm hooked. The rest of the weekend I'd like to spend in the backyard, in the hammock, on my bike, or painting the attic space.

Nate is working in the field and having a great time. I spent all summer with him and got used to it. This last separation has felt like a lifetime and I've found myself feeling pretty lonely at times.

School has started and I am enjoying what comes with experience. I am more organized than I've ever been. The kids are great. The other day we made hula hoops and after finding circumference, diameter, and radius, we headed to the park for some hoop Olympics. It was too much fun. I reverted back to third grade for a few hours.

Lots is going on with the house. We are re-doing the bathroom, painting the outside of house, and getting up to code in a few more places. I can't believe that in a year we will be thinking about leaving Salt Lake City.

Today I went to the cardiologist to get to the bottom of whats going on with my ticker. I saw a wonderful doctor who explained to me at length the magic of the heart. I had an ultrasound which was a very touching experience. I've taken my heart for granted. I had the best intentions of giving myself a heart healthy dinner afterward, but there were too many errands to run and Sampan was there when my stomach demanded food.

I read a quote recently: "what are you doing instead of living your dreams?" That is so inspirational to me that I want to repeat it 10 times a day, everyday. I tried to answer that question but instead got stuck on the fact that I just might be living my dreams. The feelings that I may not be, only come up because perhaps society trains us to want more and more. The fact is that I love my job, my friends, my husband, the lifestyle I lead...what more do I want? I'd like to be able to travel without money worries, explore a new career, and maybe have some kids down the road. It's also interesting to explore what fear will do to a dream.

I was teary-eyed listening to the speeches at the Democratic National Convention. I actually felt some love and pride for my country. America might be getting it's shit together!

That's all for now.

Jess